TEXTS FROM ENGLISH RELIGIOUS HISTORY
WOMEN PASSING: DEATHBED AS MINISTRY IN THE MEMOIRS OF SUSANNA LIGHTFOOT
AND MARTHA THOMAS
Finding that she did not become reconciled to absence from home, her parents sent for her before the expiration of a year, and her education was finished under their roof.
It is not intended to follow her through the days of her youth. To speak of the character of her mind, and of her deportment, more nearly comports with the design of this notice. Endued with an acuteness of sensibility which reached almost to a morbid affection, joined to a distrust of self, and a disposition to look upon the dark side of the picture, she was sometimes reduced to a state of despondency, amounting to little less than melancholy. Generous and disinterested in her disposition, she preferred the gratification of others to her own; and such were the integrity and decision of her character, adorned by unobtrusive modesty and sweetness of manner, that she was rarely led by persuasion or example to swerve from the path of strict propriety, into which she had been introduced by a very careful and pious mother.
Before she was twenty years of age her affectionate heart was deeply tried by the dangerous illness of her father, to whom she was tenderly attached. Feeling that his loss would almost destroy her earthly comforts, she watched over him with the most anxious and assiduous care. His life was at that time spared, but similar attacks of violent disease to which he was afterwards liable kept her tremblingly alive to the precarious tenure of his existence, and contributed to cloud her spirits.
In 1830, after an acquaintance of several years, she was married to Dr. Richard H. Thomas of Baltimore. Amid the cares of a family, and the new train of affections thus called into action, she soon lost much of the gloom that had clouded the morning of her life. She remained under her father's roof, and had an opportunity of continuing those filial duties to her beloved parents which had long been her pleasure, while at the same time she fulfilled the obligations of a tender wife, and of a devoted mother.
In 1832, when cholera made its appearance in Baltimore, she was in the country with her sick infant. She insisted upon returning to town and remaining with her husband, choosing rather to encounter the risk of taking the disease than be absent from him when she thought he was in danger.
Continuing in the faithful discharge of her various duties, encouraging her husband in the responsibilities of an arduous profession, and cheering the declining years of her parents, she was as happy as virtue, love, kind friends, and prosperity could make her. But it was not the design of her Maker that she should rest in these things for happiness.
We have said that her duties as a daughter, wife and mother were carefully performed. She was also kind to her domestics, easy of access to her friends and to the poor; regularly attended religious meetings, read her bible, and enjoyed the company of the serious. Dignity and propriety marked her actions; she was amiable and benevolent, - in the eyes of the world she was good. But He who has declared "there is none good," no, not one, and that "except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God," saw fit to awaken her to a sense of her undone condition, without him, and to show her that a life even of great comparative innocence and circumspection is not a safe ground on which to trust our hopes of heaven, without an interest in the blood of Jesus, and that change of heart which is produced by the cleansing and sanctifying baptism of the Holy Spirit.
From an early period of life, she had been favoured with seasons of precious visitation, in which her heart was tendered by the love of God, and desires raised after holiness and heaven. But, as she expressed with sorrow to the writer of these lines, she too easily permitted the engagements of the moment, or the anticipation of the future, to divert her attention from these religious impressions, deferring the entire surrender of her heart until a more convenient season, though with a full resolution that at some time she would make a decided stand. Delay produced irresolution, and thus years passed on without her salvation being any nearer than when she first believed herself called. While speaking of these affecting recollections, during her last illness, she lamented over the procrastination and indifference which so much abounded; observing, that if people could but see things while in health as they did when laid on the bed of death, they would dread to delay a moment.
How long the disposition to put off the work of salvation might have prevailed with her if health had continued we know not; but the Lord, who in kindness had marked her for his own gently laid upon her the hand of disease.
In the merciful dispensations of an all-wise Providence, He is often pleased to make use of sickness as a means of promoting spiritual health, and to teach the invalid and her friends lessons of instruction which, in the buoyancy of health and prosperity pass unheeded, or make but transient impressions on the mind. These seasons of pain and languor, in which the mind is withdrawn from the busy pursuits or pleasures of life, and an eternal world, with all its solemn realities, brought nearer to our view, are among our choicest blessings, though in disguise.
excited for the sufferer; the increase affection which is the usual consequence
of the attentions they require; the absence of every inducement to deceive,
and the consciousness that we must ere long part with the beloved object
of our solicitude and care, are all calculated to seal with a deep and
lasting impress those admonitions which fall from the dying lips of a
On the 8th of fifth month, 1835, she embarked with her husband on board the ship Roscoe, at New York, for Liverpool. The meek resignation and composure of her mind, in entering on this engagement, were instructive. In conversation with a friend, she mentioned in affecting terms, the trial she had passed through, in parting from her family, and the consciousness that her disease was beyond the reach of remedial means - yet that she thought it right to yield for the sake of her beloved connexions. In allusion to her dread of the sea, she said she scarcely dared to think of it, but was striving to cast herself on the Lord for support and protection. This she was favoured to do in the simplicity of a child, and He sustained her. Her fear of the sea was removed, and from that time she was preserved in tranquility and comfort, even under circumstances most likely to alarm. The voyage to England, though it occupied but seventeen days, was beneficial to her, and she was able on landing to attend Friends' meeting for worship, at Liverpool. Several months were spent in traveling leisurely through England, France and Ireland, during which she was never once tempted to visit any place of public amusement, however attractive, on any pretext of its being innocent and allowable in travelers. From the period when her cough became serious, her conscientiousness, which had always been great, increased; and as her hold upon this life loosened, her thoughts seemed to dwell much upon that which is to come, and she began earnestly to seek the kingdom of Heaven. While in Europe, she saw many palaces, castles, and princely domains of noblemen and kings. Though their splendour and magnificence struck her with surprise, the prevailing sentiment of her mind was, "all is vanity;" feeling how utterly impotent are all such things to procure for man true happiness. The mildness and dignity of her manner, joined to her obviously delicate health, gained her many friends abroad, for whose kindness she always continued to feel grateful.
The voyage home was a long one, and attended with severe storms, in one of which the ship was struck by a squall, and two large spars were carried away by the violence of the gale. In the confusion and uproar of the moment, she was calm and self-possessed, and contributed much by her manner to allay the alarm of her fellow passengers. Her own words will best explain her conduct on this occasion. In answer to an inquiry, if she had felt afraid of the sea; she observed, "Dreadfully so; I felt almost as if I had rather die than go to sea. But when I went on ship board, I endeavoured to cast myself entirely upon the protection of the Lord; and all fear was taken away from me, even during the most violent storm. I felt awful, it is true; but my mind was stayed: and I recur with pleasure to the sweet assurance of his superintending providence, with which I was frequently favoured while at sea."
On her arrival in New York, in the ninth month, she was met by the afflicting intelligence of the death of her youngest son. The blow was as severe as it was sudden and unexpected, but she sustained it with much fortitude, resigning all her fondly cherished anticipations of beholding him improved in intelligence and beauty, if not without a struggle, at least without a murmur. Her health seemed much benefitted by the voyage and travel, and she cherished the hope that she might now be permitted to remain at that beloved home which she had before so reluctantly left. But here again she was disappointed. As the winter approached she began to decline, and her physicians pronounced a southern climate to be indispensable. To this advice she decidedly objected. Unwilling as she was to leave home, she at the same time expressed a conviction that it would not restore her health; that it would subject her husband and herself to great sacrifices, and after all end in disappointment. She begged to be allowed to die at home. She however, again, yielded to the earnest solicitations of her anxious friends, and consented to the voyage, in the belief that it might be her duty. With a heavy heart and sad forebodings she left home once more, on the 3rd of the eleventh month, in company with her husband, child, and sister-in-law. Soon after reaching St. Augustine in Florida, they discovered that the climate did not answer to the flattering account they had received of it. So far from being uniformly mild and pleasant, it was very changeable, and not unfrequently raw and damp. A violent cold, which was contracted here, reduced her very low; at the same time the town was threatened with an attack by the Indians, who approached within a few miles, burning the houses and killing the inhabitants. Under these very trying circumstances she remained several weeks, her disorder daily becoming worse, with no way of escape from the place, except by returning northward, at the imminent risk of aggravating all her symptoms. Providentially she was enabled to leave St. Augustine early in the first month, 1836, in a steam-boat which touched there for wood, on her way to Mobile. She suffered much from high fever and exhaustion, during a voyage of six days to Key West; having narrowly escaped destruction by fire which occurred at night while the boat was at anchor and all hands asleep. At Key West she grew worse, the hectic fever being violent, and her protraction extreme. The weather was unusually cold; the house had no fire-place or chimney in it; and she could with difficulty be kept at all comfortable. The accommodations, though the best in the place, were very poor; and diet suitable for an invalid was hardly to be procured. All these deprivations she endured with patience and submission. As her health continued to decline she was led to take a nearer view of death than she had yet done, and to examine the ground upon which her hopes of acceptance rested.
been more than a year since she had been earnestly engaged to seek the
kingdom of heaven; her walk had been scrupulously correct, and in the
eyes of her friends she had become a changed and pious woman. But her
own opinion of her spiritual condition was very different. She felt herself
to be a sinner, the subject of condemnation, and of wrath, but for the
interposition of a Saviour. She ardently desired to realize an interest
in him as her Redeemer - to know her sins forgiven, and experience that
"acceptance in the beloved," without which she felt that she
must be miserable. The want of these blessings occasioned her to mourn
as one who will not be comforted. Deep and distressing were her conflicts.
She bewailed herself as a reprobate, and was reduced almost to despondency.
Earnestly as she sought the blessing, it nevertheless pleased the Father
of mercies to withhold from her, for a season, the consolations of his
Gospel. Let not any who may be introduced into the like conflicts, be
discouraged by this account, for as they are faithful, and patiently wait
the Lord's time, they will at length come to experience, as she did, that
"the deeper sinners mourn for their Saviour, the deeper he makes
them drink of the cup of salvation at his appearing." Blessed are
they who greatly hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall
certainly be filled, according to the degree of their emptiness in the
Lord's own time.
About the last of the eighth month, as her husband entered the room where she sat reading the Bible, she said, "Doctor, I have been looking for something I had no right to expect; some supernatural intimation of my acceptance, a light from heaven as in the case of the Apostle Paul, or something like it. I find now that I have only to believe and leave the rest to my Saviour, and He will, in his own time, grant me the assurance of acceptance and pardon, which I have so long sought in vain, because I looked for it in my own time and way." Her path was now comparatively plain and her progress in best things proportionally great. She was enabled to cast her care upon Him who cared for her, without, in the meantime, relaxing her exertions to serve and love him.
The autumn was unusually cold, and in the ninth month she was mostly confined to her chamber. Although her health continued about the same as it had been for some time previous, she spoke and acted as if she believed her departure to be at hand. After making such arrangements for the care of her little boy as she approved, she appeared to give him entirely up - spake much of her approaching departure, and expressed a lively hope that she should be enabled, through mercy, to give in her account with joy and not with sorrow. She was favoured at seasons through this month to experience sweet peace and comfort in the Holy Ghost, while at others "the enemy seemed to come in like a flood," to use her own expression, "and swallow up all her comforts." But blessed be Emmanuel's name, "she was brought low and he helped her." The burden of her exercise and the blessing she most craved was that she might be permitted to sit with acceptance at the feet of Jesus, and hear the gracious words which proceed out of his mouth. "Lord," she said, "I desire to lay very low at thy feet. Oh, admit me into thy kingdom, if it be to take the very lowest place."
Such was the state of her mind at the approach of Yearly Meeting, which commenced the last of the tenth month. Several of the valued Friends who attended it, visited her sickroom. The comfort and encouragement which they were enabled to impart to her exercised spirit cheered and strengthened her. The love and Christian fellowship which united her to them she frequently mentioned with a grateful heart. The animating thought seemed often to refresh her spirit, that if the love and fellowship of the saints be so sweet on earth it must be much more so in heaven. The company and religious communications of these dear Friends appeared to have a sustaining influence, and contributed, under the Divine blessing, to assure her of that change of heart and spiritual advancement which her natural diffidence and self-distrust often caused her to fear she had not fully witnessed. In a conversation with one of them she expressed her abiding sense of her own unworthiness, and of the mercy of God in Christ Jesus, her Saviour, saying, "my only hope and trust is in him, and in his precious blood. He died for sinners. He is indeed precious to me, yet I feel myself so poor and unworthy that I am sometimes tempted to fear he will not receive me at last." Her friend cited to her the many precious promised made in Holy Scripture, to such as were earnestly seeking the Lord, and endeavoured to encourage her to look in faith to Him who is the refuge of the poor, and the unfailing helper of those who have no might of their own. Several of those passages appeared to afford her consolation, and she expressed the humble hope that she should be supported in the last hour of conflict, of which she had naturally a great dread. The power of the Holy Spirit to enable us to triumph over the infirmities of nature, and the blessed presence of the Captain of Salvation, with his faithful followers, in that trying season, being adverted to, she seemed animated with the prospect, and her faith renewed, in the belief that he would be graciously near to sustain her departing spirit.
Before parting she observed, "I am dead to the world now, as it is to me. I never took as much delight in dress as some, though I paid too much attention to it. To me it is now all vanity; but there is one thing I should like to do if I am able. I would wish to put on a plain dress and be carried to meeting, and sit there as long as I could, as a testimony in favour of plainness. It can make to difference as to my poor self, but perhaps it might be an encouragement to some others to dress more consistently." She was told the enfeebled state of her body would render this exertion impracticable, and that where the will was surrendered to the Lord's disposal, it was often accepted instead of the deed. She replied that she was entirely given up to go, and much desired it; but if her friends thought her unable, she was disposed to yield to their judgment, though she wished all to know her sentiments on the subject of dress.
She remarked that she had been tenderly visited by the Holy Spirit from an early period of her childhood, and could look back to many precious seasons which she had enjoyed, but had to lament her frequent feeling of indifference to religious things, occasioned by not duly regarding these visitations of Divine love, and suffering her mind to be too much taken up with other things. Though she had had some heavenly meetings, in which she enjoyed the presence of her Saviour, yet by indulging her thoughts in wandering she had often found it hard work to come to that state of quiet settlement and waiting, in which true worship is performed, adding, "Ah, how very differently do these things appear at such a time as this - when in health, we are too thoughtless and negligent of them; but when sickness and death are near, we see them to be of infinite moment. I wish it were in my power to warn all my young friends to prize their time while in health, and seriously ponder these things."
On the evening of the 2nd of eleventh month, she was seized with nervous twitchings and such a sense of sinking as induced her to believe she was dying. With great composure she desired that her husband, who as the time engaged with a committee of the Yearly Meeting, might not be sent for, saying, "I have given him up to the service of the Lord. You know he that loveth husband or wife more than me is not worthy of me." To the question how she felt she replied, "I feel very peaceful. My work is done. There is nothing for me to do. It is time for me to go. My hopes are based upon that Rock which cannot be moved." She expressed great affection for her family and friends; indeed her heart seemed to overflow with love. To a dear relative she said, "Oh, my dear, I beseech thee, turn thy attention to serious tings. Thou art now very much taken up with the world; I trust it will not always be so. You must all come to this." "If this be death, I feel very peaceful - all is sweet peace." Her husband coming in and expressing his belief that she would soon be better, she received the information with the same calmness she had manifested throughout. After laying down, she was earnestly engaged in supplication for him and their son, commending them into the Lord's hand. She continued the next day very peaceful, having been favoured, as she believed, to cast all her burden upon the Lord; and having arranged all her worldly concerns, she apparently dismissed them from her mind.
From this period she lived but a day at a time, regarding each one as the last, and waiting the Lord's time in humble and child-like reliance that it would be the best. Meanwhile she was not idle, but leaving the things which were behind, she "pressed forward toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God, in Christ Jesus." With all the peace and comfort she enjoyed through faith in her Saviour, her humility and self-abasement were great. To a friend who said to her, "If thou hast any advice to give, I shall be glad to receive it," she answered, "I am too poor a creature to give anyone advice. I can only direct thee to the same Fountain; it is equally open to all."
be impossible to convey in words an adequate idea of the holy tranquility
which prevailed in her apartment. Death so completely robbed of its terrors
through the power of a crucified Redeemer, frequently formed the subject
of conversation, in which she joined with composure and interest. She
had learned to contemplate it as a change rather to be desired than feared.
Let none suppose that this state of mind was brought about by bodily suffering
or weariness of life. Far from it. The former she had been mercifully
spared, and the latter she never experienced. On the contrary, she said
to a friend, "I have everything to live for;" and to her husband,
"I often think how much happier we should now be if my life was continued
than we have ever been before," alluding to her change of heart and
evidence of acceptance. On the 8th of the eleventh month she rode out
for the last time. Being alone with her in the carriage, her husband inquired,
"If the choice were allowed thee to be restored to health or to depart,
what would be thy decision?" "I would not hesitate," said
she, "I would rather depart. My peace is now made, and I don't know
that it would ever be the case again."
Her exercise of mind, on account of several others of her friends, was equally great; she was enabled to plead with them in love, and experienced that peace which always follows the performance of religious duty. Every day seemed to add to her growth in grace, and in the knowledge of Christ. Many remarks indicative of her entire reliance upon her Saviour were omitted to be recorded. Indeed it was not until a few days before her decease that memorandums were regularly made. Most of the following are nearly in her own words. Much that was said to others has been lost, but it is believed that enough has been preserved to evidence the ground of her hopes and their power to sustain a mind naturally timid, desponding and full of self-distrust.
Martha's witness during her final week
Second day, 14th of eleventh month: She said, "Satan has buffetted me today very sorely. Thou hast no idea, how hard I have had to hold on: Sometimes he seems almost ready to snatch me away, but my Saviour holds me."
Third day, 15th: At an early hour her husband was awakened by her voice. She was repeating some portions of Scripture. "Oh death where is thy sting! Oh grave where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin, but thanks be to God who giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." "Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, for mine eyes have seen thy salvation." Finding her husband awake, she said, "Oh husband, I have had such a peaceful, happy night by myself: I have wished I had a Christian friend by me that I might talk of heaven. How wonderful to think that so poor, unworthy and miserable a creature as I am should go to heaven to be so happy." Being reminded of the change which had been wrought in her by the power of Divine Grace, she added, "Oh yes! Washed and made white in the blood of the Lamb; his precious blood. I want all my friends to go to heaven. "You need not one be left behind, for Christ hath died for all mankind."
She then repeated the following hymn:
thou Fount of every blessing,
I raise my Ebenezer,
grace how great a debtor
Being asked if she felt happy she replied, "Yes, I feel happy - I feel blissful. I believe if it were my Saviour's will to take me now, I should go to glory. I have had these happy frames for a day at a time; and then again it is as much as I can do to hold on, and I have feared I should be lost at last. I desire to have my lamp full of oil and trimmed, my lamp burning, ready to enter in with the bridegroom when he cometh, and to have the door barred after me." Though very feeble in body, her mind continued peaceful and calm through the day. Her impression on getting into bed at night was, that she should not rise out of it again. Being asked how she felt, she replied, "Tranquil." "I commend thee," said a friend, "to Him who is able to keep thee;" she added: "body, soul and spirit."
Fourth day: To her little boy she said, "Mother has not had so comfortable a night. She fears she was impatient." When told it had not been observed, she replied, "I fear that I have felt impatient, but I pray that I may be forgiven and that my patience may hold out."
This afternoon she had an alarming paroxysm of oppression, which she bore with great patience. She believed herself to be dying. Being asked if she felt her mind stayed she answered, "As much so I believe as my trying circumstances will permit." Desiring to be very still she sat in silence for some time. "Oh," she began, "What an unspeakable blessing to have kind friends to stick by one to the last, and then to be permitted to fall asleep in Christ, and wake with him in Heaven and sing hallelujah to his blessed name." A little afterward, to her husband, who was sitting alone by her side, "My dear, it is an awful thing to die. The sting of death is sin. Oh, what a blessed thing to be upon the right foundation - Jesus Christ the only foundation. What would be my condition now but for this hope! It is an awful thing to die; my natural fear of death is very great." A hope was expressed that that fear had been taken away. She said, "My Saviour has promised to be with me through the dark valley of the shadow of death; and he will be with me, I know he will be with me. I feel the everlasting arms to be underneath." After a few moments, she proceeded, "Mercy! What a sweet word: it is so great a mercy to think I shall be saved, that I am tempted sometimes to think it is impossible. Satan tried hard today to persuade me it was impossible I should be saved." "Tell him," said her friend, "Jesus Christ came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance," and again "Christ died to save sinners, of whom I am chief." "He knows that," said she, "as well as I do, but I told him I would hold on - dear B----- told me to hold fast, and I will hold on; pray that I may hold on; Satan has tempted me very much these three days." A little afterwards, "I love my dear friends very much, but I want words to express how supremely I love my Saviour. Oh that they may have his support in the trying hour. What is that sweet hymn about trials:
make the promise sweet,
she laid down at night she was asked if she thought she could get some
sleep: "I shall sleep in glory," said she. "I have given
up everything into his blessed hands." "Who is able to keep
that thou has committed unto him against that day" was added. "Yes!"
This morning during one of these spells her sister inquired if her mind was stayed? She replied, "Oh yes," and hearing her little boy's voice asked to see him, saying, "I have given him up. It was a hard struggle, but I have given him up entirely." "An evidence," said her sister, "of the powerful effects of grace on the heart." "Yes," said she, "I hardly thought it possible at one time." In the afternoon she observed, "I fear I shall feel too anxious to depart. Lord keep me in perfect patience and perfect submission. I desire to say, not my will, but thine be done. "Lord God Almighty, just and true are all thy ways, thou King of saints." She requested her friends to remain with her to the last, adding, "I know that my Redeemer will." About nine PM, appearing to sink very fast, she desired great quiet might be preserved in the room and no agitation given way to. "It will increase my sufferings to witness the agitation of my friends; not even my dear husband must give way to any."
remaining very tranquil for a little while she looked up and said with
a smile, "Oh what a blessing if the Lord would only keep me in this
sweet quiet." Some of the family rising to leave the room, she inquired
why they left her. "I thought you told me I was dying: I thought
I was going to glory and I hoped the conflict would soon be over."
In the morning she remarked to her husband, "My dear, I desire to deepen every day: not to slacken in my efforts after greater faith and greater patience, because there may seem to be some improvement in my symptoms." After some ejaculatory petitions, "I am almost afraid, lest I may sometimes take my Maker's name in vain. But my heart is so filled with love to him, that his name is continually in my thoughts and on my tongue." To a friend who, in allusion to a preparation for death remarked in her hearing that some persons seemed to have very little to do, she shook her head and said, "That has not been my case - no one can tell the deep baptisms, conflicts and temptations I have had to pass through."
She was much engaged in supplication during the day, and on several occasions was remarkably drawn out in vocal prayer, to her own comfort and that of her friends. One of her sisters preserved the following: "Oh Lord, thou hast been pleased to spare me another day of probation. Continue, I beseech thee, to sustain me by thy Divine presence, to resist the enemy of my soul's salvation, who still endeavors to deprive me of my hold on thee, my Saviour; making use of every opportunity to afflict my poor soul, to weaken my faith in thee and in thy precious promises. Oh Lord, I pray thee, be near me, as thou hast promised. Feeling myself to be a poor worm of the dust, with no might or power of my own, I humbly beseech thee to increase my faith - yes, dear Lord, increase my faith. My Saviour, who hast died for me and shed thy precious blood to redeem me - Oh, precious Jesus, enable me to cling to thy cross as a blessed refuge in this hour of trial. Remove from me the fear of death, if it be thy will. We acknowledge in thy dispensations, thy wonderful mercy to us as a family; unite us, I pray thee, in serving thee with willing minds, and finally bring us to meet again, a family in heaven, eternally to praise thee. Bless all the human family, merciful Lord, by bringing them to thee, and enable thy poor unworthy servant to hold out to the end, for Christ's sake - Amen."
Her aged mother, who was soon afterward supported into the room, asking if she felt peaceful, she answered, "I have seasons of great peace and assurance, if I can only hold out to the end." Her mother replied, "I believe thou wilt." "Dear mother," said she, in a low whisper, "She is ripe for the garner," and to a friend near her, "Jesus can make a dying bed feel soft as downy pillows are."
an alarming paroxysm she said to her husband, "I am endeavoring to
keep my mind stayed." "There is but one thing needful,"
he continued, "And Martha has chosen that good part, which shall
not be taken away from her." "Oh," said she, "Poor
Martha was careful and troubled about many things: but she was accepted
at last; Jesus loved Martha." "And so wilt thou be accepted,
I trust," said her husband. "I hope so," she added, "and
a sweet hope it is."
day, 20th: The last night was the most trying one she has passed, and
her sufferings were borne with lamb-like patience.
Shortly afterwards she remarked, "My mind would be very comfortable, but for my bodily distress." One of her friends having said in her hearing, "Martha's faith almost failed her last night," she rejoined, "Not my faith, but my heart and flesh." As the day advanced she grew weaker, and it was evident to herself and to all that her hour was come. About 4 o'clock she sent for her little son, asked to kiss him, saying "Farewell! Dear boy, may the Lord bless and preserve thee." She conversed with composure, with such of her friends as came in, inquiring after their families, but desired to be excused from talking much on account of great weakness. A little before 5 o'clock she said, "I am dying, but I know you all very well." Throughout the solemn and affecting scene which preceded her peaceful close, her calmness and self-possession were strikingly evidenced by the general tenor of her remarks as well as by several occurrences. Turning to her husband she said, "Doctor, I am dying; am I not?" He replied, "My dear, I believe thou art." She added, "Pray for me - Lord Jesus be with me; let thy poor servant now depart in great peace." She again requested that we should continue in supplication for her, on which a dear friend who sat by remarked, "It is our duty always to pray and not to faint." "Oh!" replied she with a sweet smile, "but I am always fainting." "Yes," returned her friend, "but you do not let go your confidence." "No!" she continued, "I cannot let go that." After a short silence she exclaimed with great solemnity, "Praise the Lord. Oh I am happy now - glory - glory - glory - precious Jesus; blessed be the Lord God - hallelujah - hallelujah - hallelujah - pray! - pray to Jesus; I feel his presence in this very room - Lord Jesus be with me." Thus she continued calling on her Saviour, whom she declared to be very precious to her, and again broke forth with the language, "Now is the time, pray that I may go now. Come, blessed Jesus, come quickly! Oh, come now, blessed Lord." Supplicating still more earnestly to be released, her husband told her she must wait the Lord's own time, which would not be long. "Oh yes," she said, "Thy will, Oh Lord, be done." - Again, "Lord Jesus receive my spirit;" and presently after, "Come, Lord Jesus." These were her last words. In a few minutes more she had ceased to breathe, without a groan or a struggle, resigning her spirit into the hands of that Saviour who had redeemed it by his blood, and prepared it to join in the song of the Church triumphant: "Blessing and honour and glory and power, be unto Him that sitteth upon the throne, and unto the Lamb for ever and ever."